With all of the controversy that surrounded former Baltimore Ravens running back Ray Rice and the elevator attack on his wife Janay Rice, you can imagine how that affected not only his relationship and his media portrayal but also him personally. We learned that your life can change in the matter of seconds and that you can be loved one minute and scrutinized and hated the next. Now that the controversy has calmed down, Ray Rice is opening up about the consequences of his actions, according to Hello Beautiful.
The three-time Pro Bowl star recently spoke with the Baltimore Sun where he discussed the video of his attack on his wife Janay and its release to the public a year ago and how he contemplated committing suicide.
Ray admitted that he felt “horrible” about the entire incident and debated on ending his life.
The big picture of it all, being the person that I am, I really felt horrible. You almost want to punish yourself. I know I’m never going to win the battle of public opinion. Honestly, I almost felt like at one point that it wasn’t worth living. I see why people commit suicide.
He was subsequently dropped from the Ravens and suspended indefinitely by the NFL last September. After winning the appeal of the NFL’s decision he was reinstated. He is now a free agent and is hoping to sign with a team, which I’m sure won’t be the Ravens. During his interview with the Baltimore Sun, he revealed that his relationship with his wife is stronger than before and knows that although Janay has forgiven him and has given him another chance, the forgiveness of the public is what he will have to work the hardest for.
It’s tough, I realize that’s a battle I’m going to have to face for the rest of my life. Time does heal everything, but I don’t think people are going to forget this. I want people to not forget about the incident, but I want people to see there’s a human being on the other side. This is not a monster, a guy who’s a repeat offender. I’m not the guy they stereotype me to be. I’m not excusing what I did.
Wow! He puts on a brave face but you never know how much someone is hurting behind closed doors. This shows, to me anyway, that Ray is remorseful and regrets what he did. It’s still in no way, shape, or form right but life is all about learning from mistakes. Let’s hope that he’s learned from his.
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